I found a condo to move into – by August 18 no less! Prayers and positive energy from friends and family must have paid off. Plus I knew the criteria I wanted, and Marilyn had previewed my list of 20 condos, and narrowed it down to 7 to view on Saturday. We went to one in Indian Bluffs first. I had walked by it with my friend Del a few weeks ago, and thought “I could live there.” However once inside I thought it was too beautiful and too pricey and too much for me. I didn’t think I needed all that. It was nice, but a bit over the top.
When we went to the other six condos however, I saw nothing I liked as well as that one. By the third viewing I was feeling quite depressed. They were too small, too dark, had too small galley kitchens, and the ones in the 55+ building were way too small. Besides the general atmosphere in that building was old — old people, old lifestyle, old-fashioned. I wasn’t ready for old. I thought, “What have I done by selling my house?… my house is light, roomy and airy. I have everything I need there. I am happy there. What was I thinking?” Marilyn noticed my demeanor and asked me how I was doing. I told her my thoughts. She threatened to kill me there on the spot. However, I asked to return to the condo in Indian Bluffs for a second look.
We went back, and the owner left with her Kindle under her arm. We looked again. I told Marilyn I would think it over. Marilyn drove me home. I was exhausted. This whole process has been exhausting. I laid down on my bed, and my cat Mystic came and curled up beside me. I slept for twenty minutes then got up. I thought. I phoned my son and daughter-in-law in Kelowna. They advised me, and I thought some more. I phoned my daughter in Prince George. No answer so I left a message. I phoned my friend Diana in Victoria and told her about the condo. She listened, and said it seemed a good deal. Why didn’t I want it? I had to admit that I thought the condo was too nice for me. For most of my adult life I have been too broke to afford the best. I have settled for second best and good enough. I have made do. I have been resourceful. I work hard… always have. I have managed my money frugally and I hate to spend it. I don’t like to owe money and one good thing about selling my house is I can pay the bills that have accumulated this past year. My Visa bill is uncomfortably high (for me) and I want to pay it off. With the sale of my house I can do that, plus pay my bills, realtor, lawyer, mover, Big Steel Box, dentist, and miscellaneous. I won’t have as much money left over as I would if I bought one of the other condos. However, I don’t want to live in any of the other condos I saw. The only condo where I would be happy for a long time is the one in Indian Bluffs.
I had thought I might go to Calgary FolkFest. kd lang was closing the evening stage, and I wanted to see her. However I had no energy. Deciding about a condo was a priority. I looked up a few more condos on realtor.ca, and queried Marilyn about them. She responded by sending me their links and details and most of them were beyond my price range. I prayed and waited for my thoughts to gel. Marilyn said the realtor for that condo was having an Open House the next day. If I wanted it, I had the power to put an offer on it now. That cinched it for me. The condo is so lovely that it would get a buyer at the Open House. So I decided to put an offer. It was higher than the price my son suggested, but it was still affordable for me. It is a beautiful condo – and fits all my criteria.
So Marilyn phoned the realtor, and after some dickering back and forth on the price, we have a deal. The amazing part of this all is that they are OK with a possession date of August 18, the day before my buyers take possession here. Marilyn arrived an hour later with the condo documents. The only condition on the sale is my approval of the condo documents. It took me all yesterday to read them, and today I’ve delivered them to a condo document expert for review.
So I have a place to move into. Last night when I wrote in my journal, it was one of gratitude. When I went to church on Sunday it was to give thanks to the powers -that -be that guided Marilyn and I in the search. I showed my friends the listing description and photos, and felt as high as a kite. I did Tai Chi Sunday morning and felt more grounded and connected than I have for months. I didn’t realize how ungrounded I was during the whole house-selling process. Now that I know where I will be living, I can relax and just be.
I have some work to do here of course. Like more cleaning, packing, recycling, and throwing out. I have to get more estimates from movers. Yesterday evening I trimmed back the flowers in the bed by the garage, cleaning up the straggly stems and deadheading the peonies. I watched TV for a while, trying to calm down and just ‘be’ for a little while before bed. I slept well.
So, Spirit, thank you for seeing me through this process. Stay with me as I continue the preparations. Remind me when I need to speed up the steps. Support me when I get tired. Nudge me when I need to ask a friend for help. Help me say Thank you to my friends who help. Thank you for being with me — now and forever. Thank you for accepting my “not good enough” attitude, and telling me to phone Diana. My daughter also said, “Mom! Of course you deserve to have somewhere nice to live!” I am blessed. May many more blessings follow.
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