According to a recent article in the Globe and Mail, the word for 2011 is tergiversate. It means to vacillate, to change opinions, to change direction. When I read this I struggled with the word and the concepts, but by the time I finished the article I was laughing. So it wasn’t just me who experienced 2011 that way? !!
There must be many of us who lived 2011 bouncing between the horns of a dilemma. For me it’s been deciding where to live. I knew I was ready to sell my house and downsize to a condo. Where? In BC with family? Stay in Calgary with friends and familiar activities? I eventually chose Calgary, despite being quite certain earlier that my destiny was in Kelowna. How could my intuition be so wrong? This whole year has been like that. I have felt certainty in decisions, then changed them as new information arose. Not unlike my responses to the Occupy movement. The occupiers also have tergiversated, and now look for new ground – physically and psychically.
My realtor and I were amazed at the number of offers on my home that fell through – SIX! I became used to living with less as half my possessions were stored in a Big Steel Box for half the year. I sold much at garage sales and on-line, feeling lighter and freer as possessions left. My book, Your Invisible Bodies, has been in the hands of two different graphic designers. The first one tergiversated and left the project after the proof needed changes. The second one works slowly. I have had to learn more patience.
My lovely condo meets all 10 criteria I gave my realtor. I live at the highest point in Calgary, behind the ski jump at Canada Olympic Park. Where I walk the views are fabulous! My new address is 2110 Patterson View SW, Calgary, AB. T3H 3J9. I am very happy here. I like curling up by the gas fireplace on cold December mornings. I’ll be in Prince George with Lynne, Leo & grand-kids for Christmas, then spend a few days in Kelowna with Bob, Dina and Ben before returning home to Calgary for the New Year.
May 2012 be a year with fewer fluctuations! I pray the wild swings of 2011 will relax into peaceful quiet living with focussed growth. I am old now, at 75. My cat is only 2. She joins me before the fireplace. All is well. I am blessed, and I am grateful to Spirit for guiding me through 2011. My Christmas wish for you is that Spirit and Love will enfold you as you grow and live.
